Dear Mary: He has lied to me and about me, should I have him back?
I have recently separated from my partner of four years. We have a one-year-old together. I met my partner online and we hit it off straight away.
After about two years together he told me a friend of his had asked him to go to a wedding with her.
I told him I didn't feel comfortable with this because it wasn't appropriate when he was in a committed relationship. He shouted at me and told me I was being stupid.
He never returned home the night of the wedding. I was really distraught because of this but when he eventually got in contact with me he told me nothing happened. I couldn't prove it so I left it.
Last year when my child was only a few weeks old I got a private message on Facebook from a woman I didn't know. She sent me a screen shot of a conversation he was having with her about him being with another girl. I confronted him and he totally denied it.
At this stage I was struggling after the birth of my child so I just left it at that.
Then a few weeks ago I found out he'd been messaging a girl telling her that the relationship was over with me, that I suffer from depression and he felt the girl he was messaging would make him happy. I also found him on several dating websites.
Again I confronted him and he has denied everything despite me showing him the evidence.
I'm just torn at the moment. He's saying he wants me back but how can I trust him?
He has put terrible posts about me online calling me a junkie because I'm on antidepressants.
Why do I still love him after everything he has done? He has always put himself and his friends first before me and our child. I just don't know what to do any more.
You have been extraordinarily patient with this man and more than a little naive. The first warning bells should have sounded when he shouted at you and called you stupid because you told him how you felt regarding him attending a wedding with another woman.
There followed a number of times when you had proof that he was either lying to you or lying about you. This is totally unacceptable behaviour and is very far removed from what a loving relationship should be.
You ask why you still love him. Perhaps you don't actually love him but you are afraid of being on your own, particularly as you have a child together.
You could certainly never trust him again after all that he has said and done and you are far better off without him.
Try to be strong - it is far better to believe in yourself and to do what is best for you and your child. The alternative - if you were to take the very unwise step of getting back together with him - is that you would continue to worry and continue to mistrust him.
He had a number of chances with you and let you down each time, and I don't see any reason why you should take him back for more of the same treatment from him.
I realise that it can be extremely difficult being a single parent and no longer one half of a couple.
But you will find that as time goes by it will get easier and the benefits of not worrying about being lied to will outweigh the loneliness.
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