'I got so depressed' - Irish Bond girl Alison Doody on emotional struggle of swapping career for motherhood
Former Bond Girl Alison Doody has revealed that she was 'depressed' at times after quitting Hollywood and returning to Ireland to to become a mother.
While the Dublin beauty says she has "no regrets" about stepping out of the limelight to marry millionaire ex Gavin O'Reilly in 1994 and raising a family, she admits it was difficult to find herself out of work.
"[Acting] was out of sight, out of mind. I just didn't have the same access.
"A lot of the roles I had got were due to someone else pulling out. You have to be there at the right time, at the right moment.
"Living in Kildare, suddenly finding myself pregnant, I just thought this was my next big job rearing my girls. I have no regrets about that whatsoever.
The 50-year-old actress starred as Roger Moore's love interest Jenny Flex in the 1985 Bond movie A View to Kill when she was just 18 and work in other major movies followed, such as Indiana Jones and the Last Crusade and a role alongside Pierce Brosnan in the movie Taffin.
While the glamorous ex-model found being a mum "fulfilling" she worried about being "jobless".
"I got so depressed at times. I was struggling not working.
"Once you have worked and you're independent, it's hard to give up that independence.
"It's great being a mum, it's fulfilling, but you need an outlet," she told the Sunday Times.
The Grace Kelly look-a-like reveals that her good looks held her back in her career.
"At times, I did myself no favours. I would dress up. I'd never underplay it - I should have. But I look at the way I look and I have to embrace it, unless I'm going to start using prosthetics or going down the route of Charlize Theron (who piled on 30 pounds to play the role of serial killer Aileen Wuornos in Monster).
"I think at times my looks worked against me. They were looking for the girl next door, they weren't looking for someone like me."
The mother-of-two is returning to the screen with her latest film Brother but admits she doesn't have the same ambition as she did 20 years ago.
"To be honest, I'm not [as ambitious]. My focus is my children, first and foremost, and my happiness."
Speaking to the Sunday Independent last year, the actress revealed she has some concerns about turning 50.
"Turning 50 is definitely a change in a lot of ways. I don't chase fashion anymore, I dress age-appropriate. I think I have experienced more, so definitely I start to care a little less.
"I don't think you can worry about getting older. You do the very best for yourself and after that you just have to let go.
"I made the big mistake once of googling myself. I came across comments where they were looking at me and saying that I had aged terribly and then I have been complimented.
"But I am older. There is no hiding it. I just try to look as best as I can for me. You can't sweat the small stuff or be in your head the whole time consumed by what other people say."