Tuesday 17 September 2019

'Trauma sneaks up on you in weird ways' - Amber Heard speaks candidly about PTSD

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Amber Heard attends Premiere Of "London Fields" at The London West Hollywood on October 25, 2018 in West Hollywood, California. (Photo by Presley Ann/Getty Images)
Amber Heard attends the 2018 American Music Awards at Microsoft Theater on October 9, 2018 in Los Angeles, California. (Photo by Kevork Djansezian/Getty Images For dcp)
Amber Heard attends the Valentino Haute Couture Fall Winter 2018/2019 show as part of Paris Fashion Week on July 4, 2018 in Paris, France. (Photo by Vittorio Zunino Celotto/Getty Images)
Actor Amber Heard attends the premiere of Warner Bros. Pictures' "Justice League" at Dolby Theatre on November 13, 2017 in Hollywood, California. (Photo by Neilson Barnard/Getty Images)
Johnny Depp and Amber Heard divorced with a €7m settlement
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Amber Heard attends the GQ Men Of The Year Awards at The Star on November 15, 2017 in Sydney, Australia. (Photo by Brendon Thorne/Getty Images for GQ Australia)
Caitlin McBride

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Amber Heard said she was "in a puddle on the floor crying" watching Dr Christine Blasey Ford testify before the US Senate Committee's confirmation hearing of Supreme Court Justice Brett Kavanaugh.

The Magic Mike star (32) divorced Johnny Depp (55) in 2016 after two years of marriage amid allegations of domestic violence. She was granted a restraining order against the actor and pictures of her with bruising on her face and body were published in a number of magazines and newspapers at the time. She alleged he threw a mobile phone at her face and in a leaked video of him, he seemed to be drunk and belligerent, claims of which he denied.

In conversation with the Sunday Times, Heard said she - and a number of other women - were triggered after watching Dr Ford's emotional recollection of an alleged sexual assault at Kavanaugh's hands in 1982.

"They’re not as obvious as you think. I don’t hide under a table when I hear a loud bang, though that happens to certain people with PTSD. Trauma sneaks up on you in weird ways, where all of a sudden you find yourself in a puddle on the floor, crying while watching this play out live on Fox or CNN … and you wonder why you care so much. It’s not your trial, right? But it is. It is.

Johnny Depp and Amber Heard divorced with a €7m settlement
Johnny Depp and Amber Heard divorced with a €7m settlement

"Every single woman I know watching that hearing was triggered. I don’t know a single woman who watched it and didn’t have their heart break. We are all Dr Ford. And we know it."

Heard has become a vocal advocate for women's rights around the world and said her younger self "could not possibly have appreciated how deep and how strong the systems that oppress women and marginalised groups are" and that she "fights every single day" for a better world.

Earlier this year, Depp gave an interview in which he didn't name address his ex-wife by name, but described 2016 as the lowest point in his life.

"I was as low as I believe I could have gotten," he told GQ. "The next step was, ‘You're going to arrive somewhere with your eyes open and you're going to leave there with your eyes closed.' I couldn't take the pain every day."

"I poured myself a vodka in the morning and started writing until the tears filled my eyes and I couldn't see the page anymore.

"I kept trying to figure out what I'd done to deserve this. I'd tried being kind to everyone, helping everyone, being truthful to everyone. The truth is most important to me. And all this still happened."

Amber Heard attends the Valentino Haute Couture Fall Winter 2018/2019 show as part of Paris Fashion Week on July 4, 2018 in Paris, France. (Photo by Vittorio Zunino Celotto/Getty Images)
Amber Heard attends the Valentino Haute Couture Fall Winter 2018/2019 show as part of Paris Fashion Week on July 4, 2018 in Paris, France. (Photo by Vittorio Zunino Celotto/Getty Images)

After their divorce was finalised, Heard was given a $7m settlement which she donated to charity, and they released a joint statement, saying: Our relationship was intensely passionate and at times volatile, but always bound by love. Neither party has made false accusations for financial gain. There was never any intent of physical or emotional harm.

"Amber wishes the best for Johnny in the future. Amber will be donating financial proceeds from the divorce to a charity. There will be no further public statements about this matter."

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