Wednesday 13 December 2017

Kesha opens up about effects of eating disorder: 'By the time I entered rehab, they were surprised I hadn’t had a stroke'

Recording artist Kesha attends the Edie Parker presentation during Mercedes-Benz Fashion Week Fall 2015 on February 13, 2015 in New York City. (Photo by Noam Galai/Getty Images)
Recording artist Kesha attends the Edie Parker presentation during Mercedes-Benz Fashion Week Fall 2015 on February 13, 2015 in New York City. (Photo by Noam Galai/Getty Images)
Kesha attends Billboard Women In Music 2016 Airing December 12th On Lifetime at Pier 36 on December 9, 2016 in New York City. (Photo by Ilya S. Savenok/Getty Images for A+E)
Recording artist Kesha attends the 2016 Billboard Music Awards at T-Mobile Arena on May 22, 2016 in Las Vegas, Nevada. (Photo by David Becker/Getty Images)
Singer Kesha attends the 'Concert For Our Oceans' hosted by Seth MacFarlane benefitting Oceana at The Wallis Annenberg Center for the Performing Arts on September 28, 2015 in Beverly Hills, California. (Photo by Alberto E. Rodriguez/Getty Images)
Singer Kesha attends the DKNY fashion show during Mercedes-Benz Fashion Week Fall 2015 on February 15, 2015 in New York City. (Photo by Michael Loccisano/Getty Images for Mercedes-Benz Fashion Week)
Singer Kesha attends the premiere of Disney's "Planes: Fire & Rescue" at the El Capitan Theatre on July 15, 2014 in Hollywood, California. (Photo by Kevin Winter/Getty Images)
Singer/songwriter Kesha attends the premiere of Disney's "Planes: Fire & Rescue" at the El Capitan Theatre on July 15, 2014 in Hollywood, California. (Photo by Jason Kempin/Getty Images)

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Kesha was so hungry at the height of her bulimia battle she almost ruptured the veins in her brain.

The Tik Tok hitmaker sought treatment in 2014 after silently suffering with the eating disorder for years, and earlier this month, she backed a campaign for America's National Eating Disorder Association's (NEDA) Awareness Week.

Speaking as part of a Refinery 29 panel at the South by Southwest Festival in Austin, Texas on Tuesday, the pop star fought back tears as she said: "I used to never want to talk about it. I was so embarrassed. It still hurts when I talk about it. But now I feel like I really want to talk about it, because I want to help people.

"If you feel a certain way about yourself, your body - it can kill you. I almost died. I came closer than I ever knew.

Kesha attends Billboard Women In Music 2016 Airing December 12th On Lifetime at Pier 36 on December 9, 2016 in New York City. (Photo by Ilya S. Savenok/Getty Images for A+E)
Kesha attends Billboard Women In Music 2016 Airing December 12th On Lifetime at Pier 36 on December 9, 2016 in New York City. (Photo by Ilya S. Savenok/Getty Images for A+E)

"By the time I entered rehab, they were surprised I hadn’t had a stroke, because I hadn't consumed enough. I’m not ashamed anymore. It’s emotional because it’s a deep-rooted disease. It can really affect your self-worth."

The singer tearfully explained that she was praised for her dramatic weight loss before receiving treatment.

"The sick thing is, I was starving. And people would say, ‘Wow, you look so great! You look fabulous! Keep doing what you’re doing!’ And little did they know, they were encouraging me to starve myself nearly to death. And that’s not okay," she added.

Kesha has been embroiled in a legal battle with music producer Dr. Luke since 2014 after claiming he mentally, emotionally and sexually abused her.

Singer Kesha attends the 'Concert For Our Oceans' hosted by Seth MacFarlane benefitting Oceana at The Wallis Annenberg Center for the Performing Arts on September 28, 2015 in Beverly Hills, California. (Photo by Alberto E. Rodriguez/Getty Images)
Singer Kesha attends the 'Concert For Our Oceans' hosted by Seth MacFarlane benefitting Oceana at The Wallis Annenberg Center for the Performing Arts on September 28, 2015 in Beverly Hills, California. (Photo by Alberto E. Rodriguez/Getty Images)

In her ongoing court battle, she is attempting to secure legal permission to end her contract with his Kemosabe Records after a New York City judge dismissed her case last year.

Although Kesha hasn't released a full length album since her 2012 sophomore effort Warrior, she has recorded over 80 songs fans have yet to hear, and she has written about all of her recent personal battles in the unreleased tracks.

“The new music is just me speaking honestly about the s**t I’ve been through in life,” she shares. “For the first time ever, without anyone dictating anything - it’s just me speaking directly from my gut.”

Kesha previously insisted Dr. Luke has barred her from releasing new music for years.

Recording artist Kesha attends the 2016 Billboard Music Awards at T-Mobile Arena on May 22, 2016 in Las Vegas, Nevada. (Photo by David Becker/Getty Images)
Recording artist Kesha attends the 2016 Billboard Music Awards at T-Mobile Arena on May 22, 2016 in Las Vegas, Nevada. (Photo by David Becker/Getty Images)

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