Saturday 21 September 2019

'I'm really ashamed and embarrassed with the things I said' - Amanda Bynes gives rare interview

Amanda Bynes in Beverly Hills in 2016. Picture: Splash News
Amanda Bynes in Beverly Hills in 2016. Picture: Splash News
Amanda Bynes in Beverly Hills in 2016. Picture: Splash News

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Amanda Bynes thinks she "ruined" her career through Twitter.

The 'Easy A' actress admitted she is "really ashamed and embarrassed" about a period in her life when she a lot of drugs and posted a number of bizarre and hurtful messages about her family and other celebrities, including some infamously vulgar posts about Drake, and the comments still "eat away" at her.

She said: "I'm really ashamed and embarrassed with the things I said. I can't turn back time but if I could, I would. And I'm so sorry to whoever I hurt and whoever I lied about because it truly eats away at me. It makes me feel so horrible and sick to my stomach and sad.

"Everything I worked my whole life to achieve, I kind of ruined it all through Twitter. It's definitely not Twitter's fault -- it's my own fault."

The 32-year-old actress even made the "really foolish" decision to announce her retirement on the microblogging site.

Speaking to Paper magazine for their Break the Internet issue, she said: "I saw it and I was convinced that I should never be on camera again and I officially retired on Twitter, which was, you know, also stupid.

"If I was going to retire [the right way], I should've done it in a press statement -- but I did it on Twitter. Real classy!

"But, you know, I was high and I was like, 'You know what? I am so over this' so I just did it. But it was really foolish and I see that now. I was young and stupid."

Amanda - who has been sober for four years - admitted her substance abuse "messed up" her brain and turned her into a different person.

She said: "My advice to anyone who is struggling with substance abuse would be to be really careful because drugs can really take a hold of your life.

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"Everybody is different, obviously, but for me, the mixture of marijuana and whatever other drugs and sometimes drinking really messed up my brain. It really made me a completely different person. I actually am a nice person. I would never feel, say or do any of the things that I did and said to the people I hurt on Twitter."

And the 'She's The Man' star warned even "harmless" drugs can ruin a person's life.

She continued: "There are gateway drugs and thankfully I never did heroin or meth or anything like that but certain things that you think are harmless, they may actually affect you in a more harmful way. Be really, really careful because you could lose it all and ruin your entire life like I did."

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