'I push to just overcome it' - Kim Kardashian opens up about the aftermath of her sex tape
Kim Kardashian has given new insight into how she coped with her infamous 2007 being leaked publicly.
The reality tv star (37) was 26 when the tape was recorded with ex-boyfriend Ray J and she successfully turned her notoriety into a business empire 11 years later, making her entire family multi-millionaires along with her. Thanks to a booming beauty business, a string of successful reality shows and Instagram influencing on a an incomparable level, Kim's sex tape has long been in her past, but she touched on the immediate effect of it in a new interview with Richardson magazine.
"I thought that for Paris [Hilton, whose own sex tape was released in 2004], it was explosive and a super lot of attention for her too, in a positive way," she told Bret Easton Ellis. "But once you go through it and you have those conversations with your parents and grandparents and everyone that you'd be really embarrassed about it with, I think you get to a point where you're like, 'Okay, we're dealing with this legally, and it's time to move on.'"
"Everyone deals with things differently and I seem to deal with things — whether the sex tape, the robbery, even the death of my dad, who was the most important person in my life — I push to just overcome it."
The sit-down, which accompanies a spread in which she is nude in nearly every photo, touches on her relationship with her sexuality, as she says is more conservative than most people think.
"It's actually funny, at home I'm much more conservative than my public persona is. My public persona is wild, sexual. But I'm actually uncomfortable when I talk about sex, and I'm more conservative when it comes to that," she said.
"But I'm vain like that. I can go on a set and be fully naked in front of 50 people doing a shoot, but if I'm one on one, intimate in bed, I'm like shy and insecure."
She went on to say that parenthood and marriage to Kanye West has made her feel more confident in herself an
"I absolutely think you can [be both a mother and sexy]. I was somebody who gained 60 or 70 pounds in my pregnancies and felt so unlike myself and so unsexy," she added. Literally, at the end, when you can't even have sex, I thought, 'I'm never going to have sex again in my life!' I just felt so bad about myself in my soul.
"I didn't lose weight that quickly. But I'd say eight months later, I had probably my best body ever. I felt like, 'I did this. I lost all this weight on my own. I feel better than ever!' I just put my body through that, and so it was empowering when I did a nude shoot.
"I definitely have two different personalities like that. But I think motherhood has actually made me more confident about being publicly sexy."