Saturday 23 February 2019

Gisele Bündchen finally reveals the reason she broke up with Leonardo DiCaprio

Leonardo DiCaprio and Gisele Bundchen at the The 77th Annual Academy Awards in 2005. (Photo by Chris Polk/FilmMagic)
Leonardo DiCaprio and Gisele Bundchen at the The 77th Annual Academy Awards in 2005. (Photo by Chris Polk/FilmMagic)
Gisele Bundchen with Leonardo DiCaprio.
Actor Leonardo Di Caprio (C) and model Gisele Bundchen (L) attend the game between the Los Angeles Lakers and the Utah Jazz on December 7, 2003
Tom Brady (L) and Gisele Bundchen attend the "Rei Kawakubo/Comme des Garcons: Art Of The In-Between" Costume Institute Gala at Metropolitan Museum of Art on May 1, 2017 in New York City. (Photo by Dia Dipasupil/Getty Images For Entertainment Weekly)
Model Gisele Bundchen (L) and New England Patriots quarterback Tom Brady attend the opening of Ermenegildo Zegna Global Store on 5th Avenue on March 11, 2008 in New York City. (Photo by Amy Sussman/Getty Images)
Tom Brady and Gisele Bundchen attends the Heavenly Bodies: Fashion & The Catholic Imagination Costume Institute Gala at The Metropolitan Museum of Art on May 7, 2018 in New York City. (Photo by Jamie McCarthy/Getty Images)
NFL player Tom Brady (L) and model Gisele Bundchen arrive at the Metropolitan Museum of Art Costume Institute Gala, Superheroes: Fashion and Fantasy, held at the Metropolitan Museum of Art on May 5, 2008 in New York City. (Photo by Stephen Lovekin/Getty Images)
Caitlin McBride

Caitlin McBride

For five years, supermodel Gisele Bündchen and actor Leonardo DiCaprio had the type of 'it' couple status that even a casting director couldn't have dreamed up.

She was a Victoria's Secret Angel at the top of her game and he was one of the most respected actors in Hollywood and theirs was a love story well-documented by the emerging paparazzi culture. Gisele is now happily married to NFL star Tom Brady for the last 10 years and DiCaprio's relationship with Gisele remains his longest ever, but she has finally opened up about the logic behind their split. She was working and playing hard but was also secretly battling panic attacks which became so crippling that she had suicidal thoughts and eventually prompted her to adopt a healthier lifestyle. She practiced yoga daily, fell in love with exercise and cut out sugar, alcohol and cigarettes and looked at her relationship through a more honest lens.

“When I was going through my panic attacks, I didn’t even feel like I could share with anyone,” she said. “I thought maybe I don’t have the right, everybody is going through so many difficult things in the world, and I don’t have the right to feel this way. So I’d suppress it, and the more I suppressed it, the bigger it became.”

“No longer numbing myself with smoking, drinking and too much work, I was becoming more and more aware of things that I’d chosen not to look at,” she wrote in her memoirs Lessons: My Path to a Meaningful Life. “Was I alone in wanting to do some serious soul-searching while he stayed the same? In the end, unfortunately, the answer was yes.”

Actor Leonardo Di Caprio (C) and model Gisele Bundchen (L) attend the game between the Los Angeles Lakers and the Utah Jazz on December 7, 2003
Actor Leonardo Di Caprio (C) and model Gisele Bundchen (L) attend the game between the Los Angeles Lakers and the Utah Jazz on December 7, 2003

Read more: 'We met under pretty trying circumstances' - Tom Brady praises wife Gisele for sticking by him in their 'challenging' early days

After splitting in 2005, she met her husband Tom Brady one year later on a blind date and describes him as "someone you can count on. It's a quality I hadn't experienced in any of my other romantic relationships. I love my husband and most of all, I trust him. With Tom, who provides our family with a stable foundation, I'm able to create a home."

Last year, while promoting her book, Gisele told People that she was found her anxiety to be crippling at the height of her career.

“It felt like everything in my life was going to kill me,” she said.  “First it was the airplanes, then elevators. Then it was tunnels and hotels and modelling studios and cars. Now it was my own apartment. Everything had become a cage, and I was the animal trapped inside, panting for air. I couldn’t see a way out, and I couldn’t stand another day of feeling this way.”

“The idea swept over me: Maybe it will be easier if I just jump. It will be all over. I can get out of this,” she wrote. “When I think back on that moment, and that 23-year-old girl, I want to cry. I want to tell her that everything will be all right, that she hasn’t even begun to live her life. But in that moment, the only answer seemed to be to jump.”

She has since recovered crediting her healthy lifestyle and counselling.

Tom Brady and Gisele Bundchen attends the Heavenly Bodies: Fashion & The Catholic Imagination Costume Institute Gala at The Metropolitan Museum of Art on May 7, 2018 in New York City. (Photo by Jamie McCarthy/Getty Images)
Tom Brady and Gisele Bundchen attends the Heavenly Bodies: Fashion & The Catholic Imagination Costume Institute Gala at The Metropolitan Museum of Art on May 7, 2018 in New York City. (Photo by Jamie McCarthy/Getty Images)

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