Break-up felt like having my skin removed – Nigella Lawson
Nigella Lawson broke down in tears during a television interview as she likened the break-up of her marriage to "having a layer of skin removed".
The television chef also indicated that there were stories she could tell about Charles Saatchi, her former husband, but that she had no plans to do so.
"I could say things and they would be indiscreet but I don't want to," she told Michael McIntyre on his BBC One talk show, to be broadcast on Monday.
Her attitude contrasts with that of Saatchi, who made a series of public declarations about his imploding marriage including the allegation – vehemently denied by Lawson – that she was "off her head" on drugs during their time together.
Lawson (54) appeared on the programme to discuss her new cookery books and share anecdotes about food.
But she became emotional when asked about how her life was going after her divorce from Mr Saatchi and a court case in which she was required to lay bare details of the couple's stormy marriage.
She replied: "Well, I'm alive. You know, I've had better times . . . life has its dips and it can get better. You can't fight it."
However, she said events of the past year had left her with greater empathy for others going through hard times.
"We all gossip. I don't take a particularly lofty view. [But] perhaps having a layer of skin removed, I'm also more aware of other people's misfortunes."
Lawson was asked if she felt buoyed by the public support for her. She replied: "I try not to live in the public sphere. You have your own life. If anything, I've stopped reading papers, which I find difficult because I was a journalist so long and I'm a bit of a print fanatic.
"I'm not an innocent, I understand how it works. I don't speak and I don't comment.
She added: "I really think that if the major thing in your life is what people who don't know you think, then you're living your life wrong."
Lawson's marriage fell apart in a most public way when the multi-millionaire art collector was photographed clutching her throat outside Scott's restaurant in Mayfair in June.
Saatchi dismissed it as a "playful tiff" but Lawson moved out and the couple divorced two months later.
In December, Lawson was required to give evidence at the trial of Elisabetta and Francesca Grillo, who worked for the family and were later acquitted of fraud.
Under questioning, she denied being a habitual cocaine user and claimed she had been subjected to "intimate terrorism" by Saatchi during their 10 years together. (© Daily Telegraph, London)