I wanted to take a penalty but they wouldn't let me, reveals Torres
Fernando Torres has placed his Chelsea future in considerable doubt after admitting that he has endured the "worst moments" of his career this season and that he now wants to hold talks with the club's hierarchy.
The club's £50m record signing has scored only seven times in the Premier League since joining Chelsea from Liverpool in January 2011 and experienced a goal drought this season spanning more than 24 continuous hours of football. Even after winning the Champions League on Saturday, Torres made no attempt to conceal the unhappiness he has felt this season. He also claimed that he was stopped from taking a penalty during Saturday's shoot-out against Bayern Munich.
"This season I felt things I had never felt," said Torres. "I felt they have treated me in a way I was not expecting, not the manner for which the club brought me here. We have had many conversations and now the season's finished we will have more talks to see what happens in the future, because this is not the role for which I came and I'm not happy.
"All this makes up for it, of course. Right now, I do feel it's all worth it but the truth is I've gone through some very bad moments -- the worst moments of my career -- during the season, and I am not willing to relive those moments.
"There have been many ups and downs and many moments where I felt lost and I didn't know what to do and where to be. I want to thank my family, the club's owner, who's always supported me and backed me and, above all, the fans. If it wasn't for the fans, many times this season I would have thrown in the towel."
It is significant that Torres has had such personal backing from owner Roman Abramovich, but it appears that he now wants clarity about both the managerial situation and whether Didier Drogba will stay.
Although Torres has been given plenty of opportunities, the past three Chelsea managers, including Roberto Di Matteo, have favoured Drogba for the crucial matches.
Torres did not come on until the 84th minute on Saturday when Chelsea had fallen one goal behind. There then appeared to be a disagreement between Torres and Di Matteo over who should take penalties in the shoot-out. "I wanted to take a penalty but they didn't let me," Torres said.
The Spain striker was also deeply disappointed to be only a substitute as Chelsea fielded what was largely a containing 4-5-1 formation.
"I felt huge disappointment when I saw the starting line-up, maybe the biggest disappointment of my life," he said. "What I was thinking when I came on was we had to win. What we were lacking was attack. We were wrong to conform with 0-0 and they punished us with (Thomas) Muller's goal. In the end, I was able to play a bit and help the team. I felt it's one of my best moments.
"The ideal for me for next season is if someone tells me what's going to happen. What role will I have in the team, what function is expected of me and to evaluate if it is worth it."
Torres goes on holiday to Ibiza today and faces an anxious wait to discover whether he has been selected for Spain's Euro 2012 squad. He believes that he can have a major impact this summer for the reigning world and European champions.
"I'm hoping I will be in it feeling better than ever and with greater desire than ever," he said.
"Football is like that, many times when you feel at your best is when people count on you the least. I've now won the Euros, the World Cup and the Champions League. We had a star or an angel, or whatever you want to call it, that the team didn't have in Moscow."