'You'd be thinking 'Jaysus I could still do something there'' – ex-Kerry star O'Sullivan on life in retirement
There have been a lot of firsts for former Kerry star Darran O'Sullivan this year as he adapts to inter-county retirement, and Sunday's eagerly-anticipated All-Ireland final against Dublin will be another as Peter Keane's men bid to thwart the drive for five.
Having played in the minor decider in 2004, this will be the first time since 2002 that the Kingdom are represented on the game's biggest stage without O'Sullivan playing a part having called time on a glittering Kerry career last October.
The four-time All-Ireland winner has found the seismic change a difficult one to get his head around and prefers life as a player compared to life as a nervous spectator.
"I made a couple of calls in the last week and over the weekend to a few of the lads that I’d be friendlier with just to wish them luck leading to the last bit of training and the game. I suppose it is strange, it’s been a funny year to be honest," O'Sullivan said.
"I’m hoping it gets a bit easier but it’s a funny one, you try to think about it as little as possible really but you start looking at yourself and thinking ‘Jaysus I could still do something there’.
"I suppose when it’s part of your life for 15 years and now all of a sudden you’re a supporter and you’re on the outside and you don’t know what’s going on and people are still asking you the same questions ‘will ye win’ or ‘what will we do or who will mark who?’
"And you just don’t have a clue really. It’s just funny being on the outside, funny trying to ask people for tickets as well instead of having them at home.
"Even this year with the Munster championship, myself and my father went up to Cork and it was my first Munster championship game going to since 2002, the year it lashed rain and 'Gooch' (Colm Cooper) made his debut and Ireland drew with Spain the same day, a couple of firsts this year."
The former All-Ireland winning captain was in Dublin today at the launch of AIB’s new short film, The Toughest Temptation. The Toughest Temptation reflects the passion and dedication behind what it means to be a true GAA fan.