Singer Morgan pours out her heart on her baby-loss nightmare
PREGNANT singer Morgan Deane Smith has opened up for the first time about suffering a miscarriage.
The 26-year-old has revealed her heartbreaking loss to the Herald.
Morgan, who is nearly six months pregnant, is now being "extra careful" heading into her final three months.
And she feels it is time to speak out about the emotional turmoil she and cricket star husband Graeme Smith (31) went through last October.
"I haven't spoken about the miscarriage until now as mentally I wasn't ready to, but since it happened to me and I've spoken to people about it, I realise how common it actually is.
"Whether you miscarry at three weeks or three months, it's one of the most emotionally painful things to go through. It almost feels like Mother Nature is playing a horrific joke on you," the former Jedward backing singer explained.
She suffered the miscarriage at eight weeks, but only realised at 11 weeks.
"I had a missed miscarriage which means I didn't miscarry the regular way. So at the time it was very bizarre to get my head around the fact that there was no blood, but still they had to go in and remove the pregnancy.
"But it brought me extremely close to my husband and we only began the healing process really once I fell pregnant again two months later."
Graeme, who is one of South Africa's best-known cricket players, announced in February that the couple are expecting a baby.
Brunette beauty Morgan said that while she's put on the pounds and has been extremely hormonal at times, it's all worth it as long as their little addition arrives safely.
"The one thing about miscarrying on the first pregnancy was bringing about the realisation that we wanted this baby more than anything.
"I've put on the extra pounds because I'd been instructed not to exercise throughout this pregnancy and we didn't want to take any risks. We are not taking one day of this for granted.
"We're beyond excited and feel extremely blessed that we fell pregnant again so soon.
"Obviously the first three months were difficult, I was tired all the time and as hormonal as a 14-year-old girl -- to say Graeme was patient with me is an understatement.
"But now I'm at the stage where I feel fantastic and more womanly than I've ever felt before.
"I went from having quite small boobs to having a very nice pair indeed, to Graeme's joy," she laughed.
"We can't wait to meet our baby and become parents."
Graeme underwent surgery on his ankle last week for an injury. Morgan admitted that while her husband is in a lot of pain, she is enjoying having him around.
"On one hand he's in a lot of pain and I certainly don't want that for him, but it's great having him home.
"He was meant to go to India this week for six weeks of Indian Premier League, but obviously with the ankle surgery, he had to pull out this year," she added.
The parents-to-be are looking forward to preparing their nursery, now that they've returned from a recent seven-week trip to New Zealand.