A note found in the handbag of a GP on trial for the manslaughter of her severely disabled daughter read: "I cannot let Emily's suffering continue", a trial has heard.
Dr Bernadette Scully (58), of Emvale, Bachelor's Walk, Tullamore, Co Offaly, has denied the manslaughter of her daughter Emily Barut (11) by an act of gross negligence.
The prosecution alleges she gave toxic amounts of a sedative to her daughter on September 15, 2012.
The trial at the Central Criminal Court was told the note, signed "Bernie", was found in an envelope in a brown handbag in the sun room of Dr Scully's home by Det Gda Colin Lawlor.
On the envelope was written: "If anyone thinks I'm awful for doing this, you should've listened to poor little Emily crying the last eight days. I love her dearly."
Inside, a piece of paper written on both sides, read: "I'm sorry love. Andrius [Dr Scully's partner, Andrius Kozlovskis], I love you more than you will ever know.
"You are what's kept me and Em alive over the past five to six years. I do not want to die. I cannot let Emily's suffering continue. I can't watch it any longer. The pain is too big. The struggle each day is too hard. The loneliness and isolation too much."
It continued: "I am of sound mind and I leave everything belonging to me and Em to Andrius who needs a home.
"This is to cancel a previous will I made at a stressful time," the note read.
It added: "Katrina, I love you and I'm sorry. Please keep close to dad and look after him for me.
"Mammy, I'm sorry you have to face all this at this time in your life."
The note asked that a wake not be held because "I don't want people gawking at our bodies.
"Can we be cremated and our ashes mixed together and given to Andrius to scatter near the swans at Galway where we were happy.
"Goodbye my love, thank you for all you did for me and Emily. All my love Bernie x Emily x"
A recording of the 999 call made by Dr Scully's partner Andrius Kozlovskis was played.
It detailed his frantic distress on having discovered his partner and her child and had urged for two ambulances to be sent to the scene.
"I think it's very bad," Mr Kozlovskis said, begging the emergency services to "hurry, hurry".
He said there was a lady who "has taken sleeping tablets" and a girl who he thought was not breathing.
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