I SAW my younger self totter pass the window at 8.10am last Sunday. She was in a full-length black chiffon dress with red 'cab to club' heels. The pink hoodie completed the morning after the night before outfit. The two boys by her side wore more casual attire, and I imagined all three recalling Saturday night's drama.
After that brief side show, I locked up the house and hopped in the car to go to yoga, wondering on the way about the pang that small scene caused me. It goes under the name 'that used to be me'.
Anyway, the wonderful thing about pangs is that they are brief. They are also a good reminder of how far one has come in life.
The day sort of went from the sublime to the ridiculous -- ie, my older brother lecturing me about the fact that I don't currently drink: "You've got to be able to have some fun sis."
Of course, he just wants me to be a taster for his wedding wine as he reckons I know a thing or two about vino. (Foolish boy, everybody else knows I operate a 'if it's red and in a glass then that's what I'm having' policy.)
These two small incidents sharpened me up -- the girl was a reminder that when I was her age, I desperately wanted some of the things I now have, while the bro's conversation reminded me that I can do anything once I put my mind to it.
I suppose we only become really conscious of time slipping by in our 30s -- but it's good to be aware of it so the comfort zone becomes less attractive.
Of course, anyone who remembers the 1960s will no doubt be only too happy to tell me that I've loads of time left to get some ticks on that bucket list.
I love the comment that Leonard Cohen (below) passes on his Live in London album: "It's been a long time since I stood on the stage in London, it was about 14 or 15 years ago. I was 60, just a kid with a crazy dream. Since then, I've taken a lot of Prozac, Paxil, Welbutrin, Effexor, Ritalin, Focalin. I've also studied deeply in the philosophies and religions, but cheerfulness kept breaking through."
As a good pal of mine said recently: "It's a wonderful thing to come late to things in life." >Dee O'Keeffe