LIAM Neeson pays a visit to his wife's grave every week but he has revealed how he hit the bottle after her tragic death.
The Hollywood star opened up about how he turned to alcohol to help ease the pain after Natasha Richardson (45) died in a skiing accident in 2009.
However, the Schindler's List actor said that he gave up drinking about a year ago after he was offered more action roles.
"I was drinking too much. It started since my wife died," he revealed in an interview.
"It was like, so easy to just... Never at work, never would do it like that, but this time of night? I'd easily have – I'd be on my second bottle.
"(I drank) Pinot Noir. I was never into spirits or liquor, hard liquor. And I gave up the Guinness years ago, because past an age, it sticks to you, you know?
"So last year, I just thought – they've been throwing these action movies at me, and I thought, 'Okay, let's just change it a little bit'. And it's been great. I love it."
Neeson (61) told GQ magazine that he regularly worries about bringing up his sons Daniel and Michael.
"My boys are teenagers. They're experimenting. They're flexing muscles and sometimes dangerous avenues, and you think, 'f**k. If Tasha was here', someone could share this. But yeah, we're doing all right?
"There's a worry nowadays, with every parent I've spoken to. It's f**king drugs. It's a virus. That's my constant worry.
"And I trust them, and they're sensible boys, but it can be just that chemistry that doesn't work."
Neeson revealed that he regularly visits his wife's grave.
He said that Richardson was always the optimistic one in their relationship and he had her favourite bible quote engraved on her tombstone, 'Cast your bread upon the water, and it will be returned tenfold'.
Neeson also spoke about how he was filming Woody Allen's 1992 comedy-drama Husbands And Wives and was in bed with actress Judy Davis when news broke about Allen's affair with his wife's adopted daughter Soon-Yi Previn.
He told how Allen disappeared off set when he received a phone call about his long-time partner finding nude photos of Soon-Yi.
"There's a scene where I'm [performing a sex act] on Judy Davis... the crew are all ready, and we're waiting for Woody. No-show. It's starting to get a bit uncomfortable,'' he recalled.
"Anyway, he came out after about 20 minutes... there was no apology, nothing... his lawyer had gotten in touch with him to say Farrow has found naked photographs of her adopted daughter [Soon-Yi].''