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I'm not a victim -- I'm strong, happy, settled... and I want five children, reveals Cheryl

She may have gone through one of the most publicised divorces in celebrityland but Cheryl Cole still dreams of having a large family.

Geordie girl Cheryl plans to follow in the footsteps of fashion designer and super-mum Victoria Beckham (38) and has admitted to wanting "four of five children".

"I always said I'd like to have a big family," the 29-year-old singer revealed. "Because I'm from one, so I'd like to have four or five children."

The Call My Name singer admitted that she spent hours fantasising about her future family with ex-husband Ashley Cole.

Cheryl now believes that saying goodbye to those dreams of her was the hardest part of her divorce.

"Ashley and I would talk all the time about starting a family -- well I would anyway."

But when the Girls Aloud singer split from Ashley in 2010, those dreams lay in tatters. "It's the broken plans you have made that are the hardest to get over," she said.

But despite her difficult divorce, Cheryl remains optimistic about the future and wouldn't rule out marriage.

"Could I see myself getting married again? Never say never. I'm not unlucky in love or anything else. And I'm absolutely not a victim. I'm strong, happy and settled."

Cheryl has been dating Tre Holloway (28), a backing dancer from her live show, since March and the pair seem completely smitten.

Last month, the two partied the night away in Dublin hotspot The Grafton Lounge after Cheryl's Million Lights concert at the O2. According to onlookers, the pair looked completely loved up and couldn't keep their hands off each other.

They have even started to co-ordinate their outfits and last month, Cheryl brought Tre to her brother Garry's birthday bash in LA.

Earlier this month, Cheryl sang happy birthday to the New Jersey dancer on his 28th in front of thousands of fans at the Manchester Arena. But Cheryl says that she found it difficult dating after her divorce. She says that at times she felt like she was cheating on Ashley.

"It takes a long time after you've been with someone as long as I was not to feel like you're cheating on them. That may sound crazy, but it's the way I felt after him. I had completely committed myself."


Cheryl said that despite their acrimonious divorce her and Ashley are still friends. "There's this perception that Ashley is an arrogant p****, but he's really not. We talk occasionally and I would say we're friends."

Despite being one of the most desirable women in Britain, Cheryl says men rarely chat her up.

"Men just don't ask me out. And I'm the worst -- a man has to be just right for me," she said.