Jade Goody's widower Jack Tweed has said he contemplated suicide after being arrested on rape charges, for which he was later cleared.
The club promoter said the stigma of being branded a rapist made him feel so low that "I just wanted to end my life."
Tweed (22) was cleared last week of raping a teenager at his home in Woodford Green, Essex, along with his friend Anthony Davis. Tweed said the sex was consensual.
Tweed, who was cleared by a jury in 15 minutes, was on remand for several months ahead of the trial. He said: "When I first went into prison I just wanted to end my life really. I just thought it was pointless carrying on.
"I don't want my name branded with something like this. The whole thing was just a horrible experience."
Tweed married former Big Brother contestant Goody last year just days before her death from cancer.
He said he got through it with the support of his family, as well as his desire to see Goody's two sons again. The boys' father is TV presenter Jeff Brazier.