It was touch and go for me after my baby died, says singer Lily
Lily Allen has spoken movingly about her miscarriage, revealing that it was "touch and go" after she lost her baby last year.
The 25-year-old star described her ordeal in the final episode of Channel 4's Lily Allen: From Riches To Rags which follows Allen and her sister Sarah Owen as they launch their own clothes shop, Lucy In Disguise.
"I got really ill after he died and I was admitted into hospital and it was really quite touch and go for a few days," she said. "It was amazing how my friends reacted so much more to me being ill than to actually what I felt was the devastating part. I couldn't have cared less if I was on my death bed.
"I didn't even feel it," she added tearfully.
The show was filmed before the singer suffered her second miscarriage while six months' pregnant last November.
She said the experience had changed her outlook and spoke of how lucky she felt to have supportive friends and family. "Even though what's happened to me has been beyond devastating, it's made me realise what I really have. I probably feel more compassionate towards things than I have previously.
"I spent a long time in a hospital bed and my outlook has changed. Everything has changed," she said. "I can't believe how much of my life I spent complaining about things."
Sarah spoke of her sister's frustration at the media's reporting of the miscarriage, in which she revealed Allen had named the baby.
Earlier in the show, Allen spoke of her dismay at being housebound with bad morning sickness and said she felt "cut off" from her shop project.
"I feel like I haven't got any control over it anymore. I haven't been able to move, I've just been being sick all the time," the pop star said.
The programme tracked the trials and tribulations in the sisters' efforts to open the vintage shop before London Fashion Week.
In one scene Allen and her sister are seen in a heated argument over where the VIP dresses should be placed within the store.
She also spoke of her desire to move out of London into the countryside.
In the first episode of the Channel Four fly-on-the-wall series, the singer-turned-fashion-designer revealed that she had suffered from an eating disorder in the summer of 2009.
Before the first episode aired in mid March, she said she had been "a little naive" to think that the show could be about sisters starting a business.
