Beauty vlogger Nic Chapman from Pixiwoo reveals MS diagnosis in heartbreaking video
One of YouTube's most popular vloggers Nic Chapman, one half of Pixiwoo, has opened up about her battle with Multiple Sclerosis (MS).
The British Youtuber and makeup artist, who has two million subscribers on her beauty channel, uploaded a video on Thursday called My Secret Illness, in which she documents her battle with the disease, which attacks the central nervous system.
Nic, who runs Pixiwoos with her sister Sam, revealed 2017 has been a "really crappy year" as both her stepfather and estranged biological father passed away and she says she inherited the disease from.
"He never gave me anything in my whole life, apart from MS. I don't even feel sorry for myself and I'm totally fine, but it's such a big thing to tell everyone," she explained.
"I've wanted to tell everyone for so long, but I had to deal with it myself first. When you see someone deteriorate from something that you know you have, so much, it can be really, really heartbreaking and make you feel sorry for yourself."
She was initially diagnosed five years ago after her first son Harry was born and she experienced optic neuritis, in which she struggled to see after labour due to inflammation and when she gave birth to her daughter Edie in 2013, she lost sight entirely.
After an MRI, she was diagnosed with MS and said she cried "myself to sleep every night for two weeks."
"I know my triggers, and I know what I can and can't do. It's just something I live with, it's changed my life but it's also moulded me to be the person that I am," she said.
"I would hate for anyone to feel sorry for me because this is the card I was dealt, I live with it. I could have been told that I have a tumour behind my eye and a week to live, but I was told I have MS and I have a life to live."
She is married to healthy chef Ian Haste, an "amazing" partner, who she says cooks every night and researched the condition thoroughly in order to improve her quality of life and that of their family.
MS can affect the brain, spinal cord and optic nerves and symptoms usually appear in your twenties or thirties; symptoms include muscle weakness, blurred vision, feelings of lethargy, poor bladder control, depression, muscle spasms and numbness and tingling.
There is no cure.