Eating Disorders Awareness Week: ‘I would eat two mini weetabix and a quarter of an apple a day’
An Irish teenager who beat anorexia has revealed how bad things got for her at the height of her illness.
Izzy Mulkerrins (19) was born in Ireland but now lives in Sweden.
She has started a blog to share her experiences and help others who may be battling the same illness.
She says: “I spent five years sick with anorexia, purging tendencies and over exercising.
“I was depressed and self harmed. I spent two years in different treatment centres.
“After a lot of struggles, lots of ups and downs, suicide attempts, tears, anxiety, panic and never thinking I would be healthy, I am now declared healthy from anorexia.”
She explained she started the blog to help those who may be suffering, and to inspire them to believe that recovery is possible.
“I have been blogging for four years, and my whole journey is written in my posts.
“I now represent health and happiness. I want to show anyone struggling that it is possible to recover, no matter how hard it may seem.
“I am happy and healthy and living my life. Going to school, meeting friends and trying to find myself in this world.”
However it hasn’t always been this way – at one point she was surviving on a tiny dinner, half a granola bar and lots of black tea.
She was eventually forced to seek medical help – she reveals her food diary for a week would contain less food than most people would eat in a day.
She says of one of her hospitalisations, when she was just 14-years-old:
"I don't remember much form that time. I was under 24/7 supervision, I had six meals a day but I refused each meal. I barely ate and drank and basically lay in bed for two months, but I kept losing weight so I was then put on a feeding tube.
"I was on a feeding tube for about a month where I gained a little weight, but I was severely depressed, and because I was on the feeding tube I didn't eat anything either.
"I still found ways to self harm and even though my weight was up, everything else was getting worse.
"I have my documents from that hospital and apparently when I was asked why I was so scared of eating. I replied, I would rather die than be fat."
At he worst, she was in a wheelchair and her BMI had plummeted to just 13 – a healthy range is 18.5 to 25.
However thanks to her medical treatment and her own fortitude, she managed to beat the illness.
You can visit her blog here.