Paul McGrath: 'The drink just owns me at times'
FORMER Ireland soccer star Paul McGrath has opened up about the crippling anxiety that pushes him into heavy drinking - following his appearance in court on public order charges last week.
In an interview with the 'Sunday World', the 53-year-old says that "nothing else matters, even your children" when he feels the need to go on a bender.
But the former Aston Villa and Manchester United player also says that his biggest wish in life is to be sober - and he plans to return to AA meetings.
"I don't drink normally, even if I could just sit in my room, drink slowly and watch TV, but I don't," he tells the Sunday World.
"It's a case of filling a glass up with vodka and trying to get out of your skull as quickly as possible. I don't know what that's all about really to be honest. I haven't figured it out.
"I'd love to be able to say that I'll never drink again," he adds.
"But I honestly know that I'm going to be in a situation, maybe being asked to go to something, where I'm going to be gripped by fear
"There are very few times when I'm free of that anxiety. Even a simple thing like going to the shops, I get a rush of anxiety."