The mother of three boys who died in a tragic incident earlier this year spoke emotionally on the day her twins should have been celebrating their tenth birthday.
Speaking on Cork's 96fm this morning, Helen O'Driscoll said she is also facing a crippling funeral bill.
The twins, Patrick ‘Paddy’ and Thomas ‘TomTom’, were found in separate rooms at the family home at Deerpark, co Cork with multiple stab wounds. Their older brother Jonathan was discovered dead in a wooded area outside Buttevant, some 15km away. He had taken his own life.
"There'd be days where you'd be calling one of the smaller fellas. You'd make a mistake and you'd call Thomas or Paddy. You'd have it said before you know you'd have it said," the mother told the 96fm Opinion Line show.
Helen added that her two youngest boys still ask when Jonathan, Thomas and Paddy are coming back.
"I have to sit down and tell them that they're up in heaven with Nana and Grandad and they won't be coming back.
"We tell them that [Jonathan] was sick and he didn't know what he was doing. There's no point in hiding it from them."
Not long after the incident, Helen said she forgave her eldest son for what he had done, saying that there should be more services for young people in Ireland who are suffering from mental health issues.
"There's a lot of mental issues out there. A lot of young boys and girls, God bless and save every one of them, they go for help, but they don't get it. My little boy went for help and they didn't listen to him well enough. He wasn't right in his head.
"I think if they did listen to him my little boy that time, I'd have all three of them today," she said.
Now, as the family are approaching Christmas, Helen and her husband are facing a crippling funeral bill, which she says neither of them are able for.
"I nearly got a heart attack when I opened it. People don't understand that I didn't just lose my boys that day, I lost my home, I lost everything I had. My whole life was turned upside down. I don't know why God done it to me."
Despite her heartache, Helen said she is still very religious and if she abandoned her faith, she'd be letting down her family.
"When I go, I know that God will be waiting for me and he'll have all my four boys waiting for me. At least, that's a comfort alone, knowing that some day I'll meet up with them again."
A bank account has been opened to help Helen and her family pay their funeral fee. Information can be found here.