'I was seconds away from ending my life' - husband of missing Tina Satchwell
The husband of a woman who has been missing for four months said he came close to taking his own life after her disappearance.
Tina Satchwell (45) was last seen on March 20 at her home in Youghal, Co Cork.
Her husband, Richard Satchwell, has said he believes his wife is still alive.
He said he last saw her on the morning of her disappearance, shortly before he travelled to Aldi in Dungarvan, Co Waterford.
He said that when he returned she was missing, along with two suitcases and €26,000 in cash. She did not take her phone or bank card with her.
Mrs Satchwell did not have a passport, and her husband said she was afraid to fly.
She has not been seen by anyone or captured on CCTV since leaving her home.
Her husband of 25 years said he has no idea what happened to his "wife and best friend".
Mr Satchwell said he did not report her missing for four days because he originally believed she had simply gone to "get a break".
However, he said he became distraught as the days went on and there was no word from her.
"When Tina got up and left I wasn't working, I was on welfare," he said. "Being in the house all day on my own and not having her to talk to, I was literally seconds away from taking my own life."
Mr Satchwell has since been prescribed anti-depressants, but said he did not want to take them as he got a new job as a truck driver shortly after his wife's disappearance.
However, he said that everywhere he went he thought of her.
"I do get black moments," he said. "I could pass somewhere and the memory comes and then the tears start coming. At the same time, if I gave the job up and stayed at home, within a month I wouldn't be here."
Mr Satchwell said he would be "totally relieved" to have his wife back, and added that he was not angry at his wife for leaving or taking the cash.
"I'd just be totally relieved to have her back," he said. "I'm disappointed. I'd be lying if I said I wasn't.
"Every penny I've ever had, as far as I'm concerned, is hers - so the money wouldn't bother me."
Mr Satchwell also said he was angry at people suggesting his wife is dead.
He does not believe she was murdered or took her own life.
"My gut feeling is she's holed up somewhere," he said.
Mr Satchwell also said that his wife had been upset in the months before her disappearance and he would lie awake with her at night to calm her down.
Speaking to the Herald, a family member expressed amazement at suggestions that Mrs Satchwell may have left home with a large sum of cash.
Her cousin said the family had been taken aback by coverage of her disappearance.