'One day I'm enjoying life and the next, I'm gripped by dread and anxiety' - John Murray on his depression
JOHN MURRAY's searingly honest words about his battle with depression and six month absence from the airwaves.
What to say about the last six months?
One day, I'm happily presenting this radio show and enjoying life.
The next, I'm gripped by dread and anxiety, with the simplest task proving beyond me.
As those with experience of it know, depression doesn't just drop in for a quick hello and run for the hills.
At least my kind didn't.
No, it took a fancy to me, decided to take up residence for a few months, and boy, did it make its presence felt.
Particularly in the mornings when the day ahead became something to endure, rather than enjoy.
But in my battle to get better, I discovered in my arsenal, a secret weapon - you, the listener.
I'm so grateful to everyone who took the trouble to write to me, send me get well soon cards and mass cards, those of you who rang, texted and emailed the show enquiring.
All the people I've met over the last few months in Rathfarnham and Borris and elsewhere, thanks for making the tougher days a bit easier with your love and concern, and for helping me get back here this morning.
We can renew our friendship now and have a bit of craic in the process.
I'm a little bit reluctant about giving advice to others who might find themselves depressed or anxious.
Everyone is different.
But one thing I will say is, don't be too hard on yourself. You haven't failed life's test, share your thoughts and feelings with others and don't suffer in silence.
Can I say, finally, to anyone who knows anyone who's depressed - don't be afraid to contact them, they mightn't reply immediately, or at all, but, boy, will they appreciate that someone is thinking of them.
I know I did."
John Murray was speaking on his RTE Radio One show this morning after a six-month break from the airwaves.