‘I drank and drugged and got myself in tabloid newspapers’ – U2’s Adam Clayton on battle with alcohol and struggling with success
Adam Clayton spoke on The Tommy Tiernan Show on RTE One
Adam Clayton has spoken about the impact of fame on his life and his battle with alcohol addiction.
The U2 bassist revealed that the band’s huge success across Ireland and the US when they were in their mid-twenties took a toll on his mental health.
Speaking to Tommy Tiernan on the comedian’s Saturday night chat show, Adam (59) revealed that he had attended boarding school as a teenager and “hated it”. When he met Bono, The Edge, and Larry Mullen at Mount Temple Comprehensive, however, he said they “felt music could be our thing” and decided to strive for success in the US.
“Success very much went to my head,” he said. “I think if you get everything your heart desires by – really we were making records by the time we were 20, by the time we were 25 and 26 we could pay our rent no problem, we owned cars, we could travel, and by the time The Joshua Tree hit we could buy a house – anyone I’ve met who’s experienced success and fame in that way in those years it takes them a long time to recover from it, and that sounds like a complaint but that’s just what happens.”
Speaking about the impact of that level of fame, he added, “You lose your sense of yourself, you lose a sense of reality. I was kind of very unhappy so I drank and I drugged and got myself in tabloid newspapers, and embarrassed kind of everyone I knew, and myself, but you know you come through it and you learn from it and maybe that’s what young men do anyway.”
Adam revealed that although it was alcohol which was his main problem, he still has to “work really quite hard at keeping my sanity, on and off the road, and my thinking can take me to bad places, my thinking is not always reliable” although he says it is great to have the other band members to “check” him.
“We check each other,” he added.
The reasons why addiction manifests itself are varied, he said, adding, “partly it’s your family of origin, what happens in your family of origin, whether you were nurtured or whatever, and partly it’s whether you had a childhood trauma, and that childhood trauma doesn’t necessarily have to be losing a family member or whatever. It can be a number of different things and perhaps separation from parents in other ways, so I think once you have that in your DNA you don’t feel comfortable. You feel restless, you feel questioning, you feel irritable and you don’t know what to believe. Once you have that programming it’s really hard to undo it and I think that’s what I went out into the world with.”
Adam revealed that he is happiest during his two hours on stage with U2 when he is entirely focused on the music and he knows exactly what he is doing. He also spoke about an incident in Australia when the band was touring in 1993 which became a turning point in his journey. He was not drinking at the time but, on the eve of a recording of the Zoo TV show, he had two glasses of wine and cannot remember what happened next.
“I know about three days later I woke up and I had not turned up for a gig, in a stadium, that was being filmed, a lot of money resting on it, a lot of jeopardy,” he said.
“I had let the guys down, the three guys who had stood by me since the age of 16 or 17. I mean I’m sure it was unimaginable to them that could have happened. I let down the audience, I let down the road crew. It was not a great place to be and if ever there was a moment of realisation, where you wake up and you go, ‘I have a problem and it’s bigger than me and I need some help’, that was it.”
He said he took responsibility for his issues but it was not plain sailing. However, he added, “It was a struggle but I’m really glad I had the struggle. I’m really glad I came through it. I’m really glad I’m here, I’m able to talk to you about it, because the alternative would have been a lot worse.”
Viewers praised both Tommy Tiernan as interviewer and Adam Clayton for his honesty on the show.
Adam Clayton is just so brilliant to listen to, the perfect mix of aloof and so clued in, one again outstanding interviewing from Tommy, this is Public Service Broadcasting at its absolute best. #tommytiernan— Brian Moss (@BriaJ82) May 11, 2019
That @Tommedian interview with Adam Clayton tonight was excellent. To let someone speak uninterrupted is a skill very few have. Great to hear Adam speak so openly and not a mention of Bono at all. #TommyTiernan— Michael Byrne (@michaeltmbyrne) May 11, 2019
Absolutely cracking interview by @Tommedian with the humble, reflective Adam Clayton @RTEOne tonight. I love watching the process of an interview like this in action. Two strangers making a real connection and talking about something that matters deeply to one of them is magic— Jennifer O'Connell (@jenoconnell) May 11, 2019
don't think i've ever heard adam clayton speak before. an interesting man and a very good interview by #tommytiernan— Brian Casey (@bocathasaigh) May 11, 2019
Adam Clayton on the Tommy Tiernan show brilliant and honest and humble.— joseph bowes (@joeybowes) May 11, 2019
Could listen to Adam Clayton all night. So beautifully spoken and articulate. What a man #tommytiernanshow— ismisecayleigh (@QueenC____) May 11, 2019
The #TommyTiernan interview with #AdamClayton was teriffic. Too few TV interviewers know when to just let their interviewee share their story. It's akin to the 70s talk show format, when the best interviewers realised the benefit of listening and dissolving into the chat.— Dermot Keyes (@DermotKeyes) May 11, 2019
You can watch the full interview with Adam Clayton on The Tommy Tiernan Show on RTE Player.