Robbie Williams: It’s ‘dark’ and ‘difficult… between the ears’
The singer also joked that he should get a medal for not sleeping with other women while married.
Pop star Robbie Williams fears that being in the spotlight will “kill” him.
The singer, 43, has a well documented history of depression, and has also fought drug and alcohol abuse.
He told The Sunday Times that he had not left his hotel room for six weeks, while on tour, because of agoraphobia, and said: “This job is really bad for my health. It’s going to kill me. Unless I view it in a different way.”
The Angels singer said that he had not felt himself since returning to the stage, after a short period of retirement, and now finds performing “overwhelming”.
The father of two, who is married to Loose Women presenter Ayda Field, admitted that it was “dark” and “difficult… between the ears”.
And the ex-Take That star told the newspaper: “I don’t know if I’d be this mentally ill without fame,”
Williams also joked that he should get a medal for not sleeping with other women while married.
“Straying outside of my marriage for sex” would ruin the honest relationship he has with Field, he said, where they can laugh about Williams having so many previous lovers.
“But you don’t get a medal or an award — and I should,” he laughed, “because I am subjected to more than my fair share of adoration.
“I go out and look at a stadium full of people who are incredibly fond of me and quite a few of them are incredibly good-looking. I should get some sort of f***ing award…. A quadrupleplatinum disc.”
Williams has a very low testosterone level and has had his sperm frozen in LA.
“We want — and wanted — kids and if I take testosterone, it knocks the swimmers out. If I don’t take testosterone, I feel dreadful. So we had to bank some”, he said.