Lord Henry Mountcharles reveals he felt 'suicidal' during treatment for lung cancer
Lord Henry Mountcharles has revealed he felt 'suicidal' whilst receiving chemotherapy for lung cancer last year.
The 62-year-old owner of Slane Castle was diagnosed with lung cancer in 2013 and had the lower lobe of his right lung removed before facing three and a half months of chemo and six weeks of radiation.
Speaking to John Murray on The John Murray Show on RTE Radio 1, he said he found the treatment "pretty tough".
"With chemo, it affects everyone differently, how they deal with it is different, and one thing I say to people who are going through it, or have gone through it, is to keep reminding themselves it's toxic stuff they're putting into you. So if you go into a tunnel keep telling yourself it's the drugs that are doing it. It's not where you are." he said.
He said the depression he experienced during chemo was "pretty savage" and that he sometimes considered taking his own life.
"That deep darkness was pretty savage at times and I hate to admit it but I did feel pretty suicidal," he said.
"But what in a sense was wonderful about it was coming out of it, just like looking at this ray of sunlight you knew was there. The frightening thing was not always being able to see it."
Lord Henry has since been given one all clear and is poised for another CAT scan tomorrow, April 14, after which he hopes to have more good news.
Since his illness, he says, he has a new appreciation of life. Having taken a break from Slane last year, he's poised to host Foo Fighters, Kaiser Chiefs, The Strypes and Hozier at the Meath venue on Saturday May 30 this year.
"I have a sort of lightness in my step and at times i feel almost a little giddy," he said. "I look forward to things with a more acute sense of excitement."
Of this year's Slane line-up, he enthuses, "I wanted to go back to the roots and what better way to do that than with a guy who started off his music career as the drummer in Nirvana," he said.
"That appealed to my sensibilities. We've built a really good bill around it."
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