Police release suicide note left by British teenager who killed US policeman
Suicide notes left by the British teenager Alexandria Hollinghurst and her American boyfriend who gunned down officer in Florida shed light on the tragic events
Published 25/03/2014 | 18:46
The suicide notes left by the British teenager and her American boyfriend, who gunned down a police officer before killing themselves have been released.
Alexandria Hollinghurst, 17, wrote three notes to her mother, Debra, her father Tom and her younger sister.
She wrote the letters just hours before she and 18-year-old Brandon Goode shot dead officer Robert German in a street in Florida before turning the gun on themselves.
The couple had been in a relationship for several months, but had been barred from seeing one another after they were arrested on drug charges last month.
Last weekend the pair hatched a plan to run away together, but later appear to have decided on a more tragic course which ended in them making a suicide pact.
The astonishing letters reveal their states of mind in the hours before they embarked on their tragic course.
In an angry and bitter note to her mother Miss Hollinghurst accused her of failing to understand her telling her: “I could write to you for days, but I know nothing would actually make a difference to you. You are much too ignorant and self concerned to even attempt to listen or understand, everyone knows that.”
She closed the letter: “If I had stayed another minute I would have painted the walls and stained the carpets with my blood, so you could clean it up …. I wish I were never born.”
The letters to her father and her sister were more apologetic.
She told her father: “Dad, I’m sorry I continue to dissapoint (sic) you. I’m sorry I’ve changed. I wish we could rewind. I love you to death but I just couldn’t do it anymore. Everyday became harder and harder.”
She finished the note: “I’m really sorry., but I know you won’t believe me. I’m sorry.”
In the letter to her 12-year-old sister she told her: “I need you to know that you’ve always been my favourite, my number one. You’re so much younger, but you’re a better person than me, you always have been.”
She closed the letter: “I hope you realise that you are ever so beautiful. I love you.”
In the letter Goode wrote to his parents he apologised for the “pain and misery” he had caused them and told them both he loved them.
He wrote: “I love you both so much. I wish it didn’t have to come to this but because of my choices this is how it has to be.”
He went on: “I love you with all my heart. Please don’t be sad, this is what I want now. I get to die peacefully with the woman of my dreams, my fiancé (yes we are engaged!) I miss you both so much already. I love you mom, I love you dad.”
The letters were released by the Polk County Sheriff’s Office in Florida along with notes that Miss Hollinghurst and Goode exchanged with one another.
In one undated note he sent to her, he discussed a plan to run away together to Panama in Central America.
He wrote: “We could live on the beach, just me and you forever in our small little cozy house.”
He also discussed plans for the couple to marry telling her he had already picked out a ring.
The couple were reported missing on Friday after leaving the notes at their homes.
A missing person’s report filed by the Hollinghurst family revealed that Alex – as she was known – climbed out of her little sister’s bedroom window to meet up with Goode.
In the early hours of Saturday morning they were challenged by a patrol officer in the upmarket district of Windermere in Orlando.
They opened fire on the officer fatally wounding him in the head before shooting themselves dead.
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