Florida student accused of killing couple writes about being bullied and accepting death
The Florida college student accused of randomly killing a couple and eating the flesh off the dead man’s face wrote about being bullied and accepting his death, new court documents reveal.
The journal of Austin Harrouff (19) was released by the State Attorney’s Office along with hundreds of other documents made public this week.
They also revealed that the troubled youth had searched the internet for schizophrenia, hallucinations, and Satan.
It is reported that Harrouff had been acting strangely before storming off during a family dinner on the day of the murder in Jupiter, Florida.
Later that night the 19-year-old was discovered on top of John Stevens (59) biting his face after allegedly stabbing him and his 53-year-old wife to death in their driveway.
Newly released drug test results revealed that Harrouff was not under the influence on a synthetic drug like flakka or bath salts, whose abusers have been known to become suddenly and irrationally violent.
When Harrouff was transported to hospital he reportedly told investigators he “ate something bad.” When asked what, Harrouff replied, “humans.”
He has since been charged with two counts of first-degree murder.
In one undated journal entry Harrouff wrote: “'You say my big heart’s gonna kill me one day, my head roller coasting with these drugs in my brain,' 'So why do it anyways? Why do it anyways?'
“'Do you know what it feels like to be so afraid to speak? Becoming a bully ‘cause all the bullies bullied me,' 'The anxiety I feel inside feels like I internally bleed.'”
Internet history from Harrouff’s phone showed search terms including “How to sell your soul to the Devil,” “How do I let God into my life” and “How to contact Oprah Winfrey,” the station reports. He also searched for information about mental disorders, and once searched, “Why am I losing my emotions?”
In the days before the killings, Harrouff talked about having “superpowers” and being immortal, family has said.
Florida authorities also released extremely graphic crime scene photos earlier this week. One shows the accused in a pool of blood with several cuts on his body. Another shows a trail of blood in the driveway along with a beer bottle and sunglasses, blood spatters on plastic containers in the garage, and a pair of scissors.
Other photos show a bloodied Harrouff in handcuffs.
One of Harrouff’s attorneys, Nellie King, said her client has a mental illness, but did not say if he had been diagnosed with a specific disorder.
“Austin is struggling with severe mental illness and the judicial process will bear all of this out in due time,” King said in a statement.
Harrouff’s parents had also expressed concern for their son’s mental health. On the day of the attacks, Harrouff’s mother called 911 to say her son had stormed off from dinner with his father.
“He’s acting a little strange. It seems like he’s a little delusional,” said Mina Harrouff to a dispatcher.