Vincent Tabak: I wanted to commit suicide after killing Joanna, I’m haunted.
VINCENT Tabak contemplated suicide after killing Joanna Yeates, a court heard today.
Tabak, 33, told jurors he thought twice about killing himself, including jumping off a bridge.
He told Bristol Crown Court, where he has admitted her manslaughter but denied her murder: "The first time was when I was in Cambridge and I think that was that day or the day after Joanna's body was found and it put me in a state of total despair and I didn't know what to do..."
After pausing and composing himself, he added: "But I just clung on and decided not to do anything."
Tabak tearfully apologised to her family today as he said he will be haunted for the rest of his life by her death.
He confirmed to the court he had been "calculating, dishonest and manipulative" in trying to cover his tracks.
Giving evidence for the first time, he told the court of his regrets at strangling her when she rejected his advances.
With Miss Yeates's parents, David and Teresa, and boyfriend Greg Reardon looking on, Tabak said: "I had ample opportunity to call and I did not do it.
"I can only say that I am really sorry that I am responsible for her death and that I am responsible for putting her parents and Greg through a week of hell... knowing where she was.
"I still cannot believe that I was capable (of that).
"It will haunt me for the rest of my life, no matter what sentence I get."
When asked by prosecution barrister Nigel Lickley QC if he had been calculating, Tabak replied: "What I did after I killed Joanna Yeates... yes."