Colin Farrell describes his first time having sex sober as 'one of the most terrifying moments' of his life
Colin Farrell said the first time he had sex with a woman sober was ‘one of the most terrifying moments’ of his life.
The 37-year-old, who has been sober for eight years, said he first slept with a woman two and a half years after he ‘got clean’.
“I made love to a woman about two and a half years after I got clean, and it was one of the most terrifying moments of my life,” he told the March issue of Elle.
“It was in the afternoon. The windows and the curtains were open,” he shared.
“It was lovely, and to be crass, it wasn't f***ing. She was very gentle.
“But it was terrifying,” he continued.
“Because I was just used to drunkenness and dark rooms and clubs and toilets and wherever.”
And sex wasn’t the only concern the Dubliner had as he battled his addiction.
“I worried I wouldn't be able to talk, full stop,” he said.
“I hadn't uttered a word sober in about 15 years.”
Farrell also said he believes in monogamy, but he just hasn’t met the right woman yet.
“I’ve had arguments with friends about this,” he said.
“For me, I don’t know if it’s possible. I’m not saying it’s not possible.
“I’ve been monogamous in relationships. But I’m not in a relationship now,” he continued.
“So they haven’t worked. So it wouldn’t stand up in court.
“We've all seen people who are 70, 80, 90, who have held each other's hands throughout their lives. But is there a part of man that does want to sow his seed? Absolutely.
“Does that mean it has to be followed through on? Or does it allow us to ask why and dig a little deeper? I don't know. But I certainly do believe in monogamy.
"I don't believe that it's for everyone. I don't believe that marriage is for everyone,” he added.
“So much of life is begging to be chosen how it wants to be lived. Much more than most of us realise."