'She had a childlike curiosity that walked a thin line between insult and charm' - Peaches Geldof's best friend writes a heartfelt tribute on the anniversary of her death
Published 08/04/2016 | 10:22
On the second anniversary of Peaches Geldof's death, her childhood friend Lily Guiterrez pens an emotional tribute.
"I used to have a friend who was a firework of a girl, so brilliant, daring and bright that being near her I often felt I was holding my breath, waiting for the next vivid explosion," Lily wrote in a post on Motherland.net
"She was a wild, rare thing, always creating chaos. Her imagination was huge and she told fantastic tales – she was my favourite liar.
Peaches was found dead in the Kent home she shared with her husband Thomas Cohen and their two young sons, Phaedra and Astala, in April 2014, having taken what an inquest found to be a "life-threatening" amount of heroin.
Speaking of the grief she suffered when she lost her life-long friend, Lily says: "My grief came in unstoppable waves and disconnected me from everyone.
"A live thing, like a bear inside me, it came out when it wanted and terrified me. I had no control over it. I didn’t speak about it because I was scared this bear had the power to swallow the person I was talking to whole."
The letter also describes how the pair met, how they spent their childhood and how they were united in a shared grief when both girls lost their mothers at a young age.
"We met as young girls in a whirlwind of sleepovers and Rocky Horror. I was the scrappy fisherman’s daughter, she was the precocious teen queen. We were inseparable.
"When Peaches’ mum died I was ready to greet her with a sympathetic hug and a box of tissues, but when we met she seemed fine, her normal self. I was confused by her apparent lack of grief, but the following year my Mum died and the truth of such a death was revealed to me. I too went to school the next day, I too appeared fine, but somewhere secret I was broken. A change that was almost impossible to see, but Peaches recognised it like a mirror image."
The endearing letter offers insights into the type of friend Peaches was and how she viewed life.
"Peaches never worried about being polite. She had a childlike curiosity that walked a thin line between insult and charm. I lived with her for years but I don’t think she ever knew where I was going when I left for work in the mornings.
"She was completely unconcerned by surface things, things other people used to define themselves. She had a special power that allowed her to get right to the core of a person, to find their deepest secrets, their shadow selves, their most tender and very best parts. And she’d discard the rest, the boring bits, the job titles and such."
Describing the things she misses about Peaches, Lily explained: "The thing I miss most about Peaches, above her quick wit and spark, above her ability to mesmerise, is her heart. I miss the heart she often tried to keep hidden, anyone who caught a glimpse of it knew it was gigantic."