Popstar Lady Gaga opens up about how teenage rape changed her 'completely
Published 11/12/2015 | 22:12
Popstar Lady Gaga has opened up about how her own experience of sexual assault changed her “completely”.
In an interview for the campus-rape documentary The Hunting Ground, the singer explained how she was assaulted at the age of 19 by a man 20 years older than her.
"I didn't tell anyone for I think seven years," Gaga said in the TimesTalk session.
"I didn't know how to think about it. I didn't know how to accept it. I didn't know how not to blame myself, or think it was my fault. It was something that really changed my life. It changed who I was completely. It changed my body."
Gaga said the experience has partially inspired her song "Til It Happens to You."
Gaga explained during the interview that she is speaking out in order to help other young people who are holding their own secrets.
"I'm here because when I look out onto the sea of beautiful young faces that I get to sing and dance for, I see a lot of people who have secrets that are killing them."
"We don't want you to keep your pain inside and let it rot like an old apple on your counter, you know? It's like, just get rid of all that trash. Let's get rid of it together," the New York Magazine reported.
In an interview with Howard Stern earlier this year, the singer said: "I went through some horrific things. I'm able to laugh now because I've gone through a lot of mental and physical therapy and emotional therapy to heal over the years, my music has been wonderful for me.
"I was a shell of my former self at one point. I was not myself.
"I was about 19. I went to Catholic school and then all this crazy stuff happened, and I was going, 'oh is this just the way adults are?' I was very naive.
"It happens every day and it's really scary and it's sad. It didn't affect me as much right after as it did about four or five years later.
"It hit me so hard. I was so traumatised by it that I was like 'just keep going' because I just had to get out of there.
"I wasn't even willing to admit that anything had even happened.
"I don't want to be defined by it. I'll be damned if somebody is going to say that every creatively intelligent thing that I ever did is all boiled down to one d***head that did that to me."
She said she has never confronted the man responsible: "I don't know how I would react. I think it would terrify me. It would paralyse me. I saw him one time in a store and I was so paralysed by fear."