Jodi Albert: 'I was so euphoric and happy with my baby Koa, but at the same time I didn't like myself'
The former Hollyoaks actress and singer opens up about her battle with post-natal depression
Published 07/07/2014 | 11:18
Actress and singer Jodie Albert has opened up about her battle with post-natal depression.
The 30-year-old, who is married to former Westlife star Kian Egan, told 2FM host Ryan Tubridy about the experience on his radio show earlier today.
She was unaware that she was battling post natal depression at the time, she told Ryan from her Strandhill, Co Sligo, home this morning.
“I was so happy with this beautiful baby, I would look at Koa and I was so euphoric and so happy, but at the same time I didn’t like myself which was very strange,” she said.
The former Hollyoaks star said that she “went through a lot” while pregnant with her son.
“Westlife ended, Wonderland ended, a few friends left our lives, and my mum was sick so there was a lot of change during that time.”
Jodi believes that she suppressed her feelings while pregnant, but when Koa arrived in December 2011 she was forced to face her emotions.
“I was just on autopilot, and I felt ashamed. I felt people might think I wasn't a good mum,” she reflected. “Once I recognised what it was I was able to get help and talk about it.”
The Londoner credits her “superman” husband Kian for his unfailing support and also attended therapy sessions to come to terms with her mental health.
Jodi and Kian have been together for eleven years. The Voice of Ireland mentor also opened up to Tubridy about the period of the family’s life:
“I didn’t really know what was going on. She would be lying in bed saying ‘I don’t want to get up today, just leave me.’ So I used to just leave her lying in bed, watching junk tv , letting her have some more sleep, hoping she would get herself back together,” he revealed.
“I remember finding her one day crying in the corner and I said ‘what’s wrong with you’ and she said ‘I don’t know’”.
“He was so supportive,” Jodi gushed, “and he is the best dad. When he bounces through that door he’s like Superman- he has the baby on his back and he cooks dinner. It’s just so amazing.”
The couple, who tied the knot in Barbados in 2009, have said that their relationship has always been incredibly strong.
After learning that her best friend had simultaneously been experiencing the same feelings, Jodi was encouraged to open up and tell her story.
“I started writing the bones of a book- it’s comedy book about my attempt to stumble through motherhood. It’s basically a reflection about post natal but hopefully it will make women laugh.”
“Writing has really healing. I’m taking the mick out of myself and telling my stories,” she joked.
The London native is currently sending the manuscript to prospective publishers.