'I don't blame you at all' - Robin Williams' widow Susan reveals her last words to him following his death
Published 28/11/2015 | 15:07
Robin Williams widow Susan has opened up about the difficulties her husband faced in the lead up to his death and how she felt in the immediate aftermath.
Legendary comedian and actor Williams died by suicide in August 2014 after battling Parkinson's disease and debilitating symptoms including anxiety and insomnia.
After his death, Susan also found out he had been diagnosed with Lewy Body disease.
Writing for The Times, Susan revealed that Robin suffered a panic attack on the set of Night at the Museum: Secret of the Tomb, during which he couldn't remember some of his line.
He told her he felt like he needed a "reboot for his brain".
Susan also revealed that he suffered from insomnia and broken sleep.
“If we were lucky, we would get two hours' sleep and then he would thrash and we would be up. He was always awake and ready to talk,” she said.
“Usually, he would be looping on a delusional fear or paranoia that he couldn't shake, and we would talk it through.”
Treatment at a rehab centre helped him to learn techniques to deal with his issues but Susan revealed he saw his symptoms return just a week after returning home.
After his death, Susan was given some time alone with her husband's body and revealed what she said to him in those moments.
"After the emergency services had left, I had a moment alone with him in the room," she wrote.
"Without understanding, I completely understood. I began talking, 'Robin. I'm not mad at you. I don't blame you at all. Not one bit. You fought so hard and you were so brave. With all my heart, I love you.'"