Ellie Goulding reveals 'debilitating' panic attacks: 'I could only travel if I was lying down in the car with a pillow over my face'
Published 18/05/2016 | 10:49
Ellie Goulding has opened up about her struggles with “debilitating” panic attacks and anxiety.
The Grammy-nominated singer said that at times her anxiety was so bad that she was unable to leave her house and she could only leave the house “lying down in the car with a pillow over my face”.
The 29-year-old’s struggle with panic attacks was at its worst at the start of her career, but she has said that she learned to cope through cognitive behavioural therapy (CBT).
“I was sceptical at first because I’d never had therapy, but not being able to leave the house was so debilitating”, the singer told Flare magazine.
“My surroundings would trigger a panic attack, so I couldn’t go into the studio unless I was lying down in the car with a pillow over my face. I used to beat myself up about it,” she revealed.
After years of therapy and management, the Starry Eyed songstress said she is better equipped than ever to handle panic attacks.
"I think my body has become quite good at controlling anxiety,” she added.
"I have the same vulnerabilities, the same fears, the same insecurities as the next girl, but I’m very open about them."
Goulding, an ambassador for Nike, has a keen interest in fitness and credits her time at the gym with helping her manage her anxiety.
With 10.7 million followers on Instagram, the star admits she has been slut-shamed on social media for sharing photos of her body. However, it doesn’t seem to bother her too much.
“I’m proud of my body”, the self-confessed gym addict said. “I work hard, but I don’t have the perfect body.”
“When I put up a fitness video, I’m encouraging other women to be physically strong.”
Goulding is currently in the middle of a world tour for her latest album, Delirium.