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Ellie Goulding reveals 'debilitating' panic attacks: 'I could only travel if I was lying down in the car with a pillow over my face'

Amy Mulvaney

Published 18/05/2016 | 10:49

Ellie Goulding
Ellie Goulding
Ellie Goulding attends The Elle Style Awards 2016 on February 23, 2016 in London, England. (Photo by Anthony Harvey/Getty Images)
Ellie Goulding arrives at the 58th annual Grammy Awards at the Staples Center on Monday, Feb. 15, 2016, in Los Angeles. (Photo by Jordan Strauss/Invision/AP)
Singer Ellie Goulding performs onstage during day 1 of the 2016 Coachella Valley Music & Arts Festival Weekend 2 at the Empire Polo Club on April 22, 2016 in Indio, California. (Photo by Kevin Winter/Getty Images for Coachella)
Model and Victoria's Secret Angel Candice Swanepoel from South Africa walks the runway while Singer Ellie Goulding performs during the 2015 Victoria's Secret Fashion Show at Lexington Avenue Armory on November 10, 2015 in New York City. (Photo by Dimitrios Kambouris/Getty Images for Victoria's Secret)
Ellie Goulding.

Ellie Goulding has opened up about her struggles with “debilitating” panic attacks and anxiety.

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The Grammy-nominated singer said that at times her anxiety was so bad that she was unable to leave her house and she could only leave the house “lying down in the car with a pillow over my face”.

The 29-year-old’s struggle with panic attacks was at its worst at the start of her career, but she has said that she learned to cope through cognitive behavioural therapy (CBT).

“I was sceptical at first because I’d never had therapy, but not being able to leave the house was so debilitating”, the singer told Flare magazine.

Singer Ellie Goulding performs onstage during day 1 of the 2016 Coachella Valley Music & Arts Festival Weekend 2 at the Empire Polo Club on April 22, 2016 in Indio, California. (Photo by Kevin Winter/Getty Images for Coachella)
Singer Ellie Goulding performs onstage during day 1 of the 2016 Coachella Valley Music & Arts Festival Weekend 2 at the Empire Polo Club on April 22, 2016 in Indio, California. (Photo by Kevin Winter/Getty Images for Coachella)

“My surroundings would trigger a panic attack, so I couldn’t go into the studio unless I was lying down in the car with a pillow over my face. I used to beat myself up about it,” she revealed.

After years of therapy and management, the Starry Eyed songstress said she is better equipped than ever to handle panic attacks.

"I think my body has become quite good at controlling anxiety,” she added.

"I have the same vulnerabilities, the same fears, the same insecurities as the next girl, but I’m very open about them."

Ellie Goulding arrives at the 58th annual Grammy Awards at the Staples Center on Monday, Feb. 15, 2016, in Los Angeles. (Photo by Jordan Strauss/Invision/AP)
Ellie Goulding arrives at the 58th annual Grammy Awards at the Staples Center on Monday, Feb. 15, 2016, in Los Angeles. (Photo by Jordan Strauss/Invision/AP)

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Goulding, an ambassador for Nike, has a keen interest in fitness and credits her time at the gym with helping her manage her anxiety.

With 10.7 million followers on Instagram, the star admits she has been slut-shamed on social media for sharing photos of her body.  However, it doesn’t seem to bother her too much.

“I’m proud of my body”, the self-confessed gym addict said. “I work hard, but I don’t have the perfect body.”

Ellie Goulding.
Ellie Goulding.

“When I put up a fitness video, I’m encouraging other women to be physically strong.”

Goulding is currently in the middle of a world tour for her latest album, Delirium.

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