Shane Carthy on battle with depression: My thoughts were of ending my life really
Youngster wants people to be more open about depression
A little over six months ago, Dublin GAA revealed that one of its brightest young stars was involved in a battle with depression that had thoughts of "ending his life" circling in his head.
Now Shane Carthy is looking forward to a season that could see him establish himself in Jim Gavin's Dublin team, having started last week's defeat in Cork.
In Dublin, they had long been sure the Naomh Mearnog man had a big future. He was man of the match for the U-21s against Meath in last year's Leinster final but withdrew from football shortly afterwards.
"It was building up so much for years previous to that and unfortunately the five or six months before that, my thoughts were of ending my life really," Carthy said, at the launch of the ESB's 'EnergyFit' Programme.
"That really didn't help with going to school or football, I just had this constant dark shadow in my way.
"Football is maybe a distraction for me, nearly a good thing in a way, but it got to a point where I couldn't function in everyday life.
"I just really had to say, 'Look I need to sort the mental side of my world before everything else comes into play'."
Taking the first step and talking to someone was the hardest part and Carthy is happy he is in a much better place this time around.
"Inside when I had a few moments to myself, I was really crumbling and breaking down," he revealed. "I don't know how I went through it for a couple of years but it got harder and harder as the thoughts got worse.
"I'm glad I spoke up and dealt with it and to be honest now I wish I had done it earlier because I'm along the recovery path and am nearly out the other side."