Notebook: A look at the week that was
It's early October and I feel a little colder, but also a little fed-up. Being fed up at times - does that mean I have depression? I hope not. Last week I felt overwhelmed with all I have to do and all I have not done.
I feel I am running out of time at 45 years of age. I seriously wanted to be more financially comfortable. The reasons for being fed up are all too common: money, bills, career. Well, in a nutshell, it's all due to a lack of money. I hear my mum's voice asking, 'does money make you really happy?'. Of course it does. Money helps you sleep better at night. It is without question the difference between peace of mind and stress. It was the same last September/October: kids back at school and bills streaming in, hitting me like conkers falling off a chestnut tree.
So what do you do apart from make a plan, be creative, talk to people, get a mentor, meditate, do mindfulness, walk the dog. Spare me! Apart from walking the dog, I don't have the time or the inspiration to do any of those things. I took to the bed. Feeling down or fed up is worse when you are tired, and feeling down does tire me for sure.