‘Our baby girl was perfect but he wasn’t here to meet her’- Woman who lost husband when she was 19 weeks pregnant
A woman who lost her husband while she was pregnant with their first child has offered hope to those contemplating suicide and said there is a way back from “the darkness”.
Sinead Hingston (35) lost her husband Geoff (37) in 2011 during a family holiday in Portugal when she was 19 weeks pregnant with the couple’s daughter Lily. The pair had been married for seven months.
“I was just 30 when he died. A baby myself some might say Well I have never grown up so quick, so soon. I was 19 weeks pregnant and can honestly say, hand on my heart, that that pregnancy is the only thing that kept me here. We were married a wonderful 7 months. Life was amazing, happy and exciting,” Sinead said.
“I never felt a wave of darkness wash over me as quick as I did the day he died.”
Sinead, from Sandyford in Dublin, moved home to Ireland from London following Geoff’s death and gave birth to baby Lily in December 2011.
“When I held our beautiful, perfect baby girl I felt relief but also a new wave of devastation. She was out and she survived 19 weeks of me crying, unable to eat and unable to breathe. She was perfect. But he wasn't here. Nothing could have prepared me for that bit,” said Sinead.
Sinead’s daughter Lily is now 4 and she feels that she is finally starting to come out the other side of Geoff’s tragic death. The mum admitted that she is “living proof” that there is a way out of the darkness and urged anyone contemplating taking their own life to consider this.
“When you hit rock bottom the only way is up again,” she said.
“Watching my husband die was my worst nightmare, but I finally feel as though I’m beginning to come out the other end. I will never ever get over it, but time has allowed me to embrace my life for what it is. I have a wonderful boyfriend, Michael, who has been amazing and he loves my baby girl.
“If my story can help just one person I will feel like it has helped. If you’re struggling at all, find the courage to confide in someone. People want to help, but they might not always know when it’s needed. I’m living proof that you can get through tough times.”
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