‘I have held my dead son’s body in the middle of a highway ‘- Mum who tragically lost her son (4) in fatal crash
Published 19/07/2016 | 11:12
A grief-stricken mother who tragically lost her four-year-old son in a fatal car accident has urged other parents to value the precious time they have with their children and to stop living life “through the lens of a camera”.
Ashley Grimm lost her son Titus (4) on June 2 when their van was forced off the road by a large boulder in Idaho, USA. The mum-of-eight managed to free four of her five children, except Titus (4) who died at the scene and she said she has realised “every mother’s worst fear” since his death.
“I have gone through every mother's worst fear,” Ashley wrote in a Facebook post.
“Our lives were instantly ripped apart. The little boy who had been my pride and joy was cruelly taken from me in a matter of seconds,” she said.
Although paramedics attempted to revive Titus at the scene, the little boy could not be saved.
In the weeks following the accident, Ashley admitted her whole family has been torn apart, and Titus’ death has changed her forever.
I'm not who I once was; death and loss changes a person from the inside out.
“I have held my dead son’s body in the middle of a highway while I rocked him and screamed and ordered God to bring him back.
“I have chosen a funeral plot for my four year old boy as I contemplated jumping from the cliff the cemetery overlooks just so I could be where he is.
“I have purchased a $200 superhero outfit for my son to wear as he decomposes in the earth.
“I have kissed a corpse over and over and wept as I traced over every feature of his ice cold face and held his still dimpled, but lifeless hands.
“I have slept in a cemetery just to try and take one more nap with him. I talk to the dirt, to the ground where he lies with his lovely blanket and his Avengers outfit.”
The mum-of-eight says Titus’ death has made her realise how precious the lives of her children are, and hopes her story will urge other parents to value the time they have together with their kids.
“Go hug your babies right now. Soak in their smell, look at the innocent sparkle in their eyes that is lost somewhere between childhood and adulthood. Really feel how they squeeze you. Set down your phone and see them through the lens of your eyes not only the lens of your camera. Remember the feeling of their head on your shoulder, their hand in yours, their sloppy kisses on your cheeks. Nurse them one more time. Sleep is overrated. Listen five minutes longer about Star Wars, Minecraft and Disney princesses.
“Mamas, hold your children tight. How blessed you are to have been entrusted with such unique, beautiful, tiny humans,” she said.