Suicidal garda speaks of home repossession fears
A garda who says his home is being repossessed has gone online with a cri de coeur over the suicidal feelings he has experienced.
Gardai sources said yesterday that they believe the post on the 'Support for Nurses, Midwives and Frontline Staff in Ireland' Facebook page posted last month is authentic. A number of gardai in similar financial straits have committed suicide in recent years, sources say.
In his post on the website, the officer said he is married with three young children and is in the process of having his home repossessed by a bank. Facebook page administrators posted the letter, captioned 'Yet Another Heartbreaking Story of Hidden Ireland', and asked other frontline workers in financial difficulties to share their experiences, particularly if they also have suicidal feelings.
In his letter, the garda says that he is expecting to be evicted from the home, which he says he bought at a price three times its current value.
"Only my wife knows about it. No one else. We are too ashamed to say anything to anyone. It's an Irish thing, I think. Pride. I feel like I've let my family down and I'm too proud to let anyone including my elderly parents know about it, and my wife is at her wits' end with worry.
"We have tried our level best not to get into mortgage arrears but it was a choice between food and heating (we have small kids) or the mortgage. We chose to feed the children.
"We haven't taken a holiday for the past eight years. Our car is 11 years old. We have a basic 2-up, 2-down house in an estate. Nothing fancy at all. We don't drink and we don't smoke. Our only mistake is that we bought our house in the so-called boom times for three times the price it's worth now.
"And now their thanks to us for bailing them out is to bail us out of our home. It's just sickening. Like other people in your posts, the bank refuse to talk to us. They just want us out of our home.
"Like another poster on your page, I too sleep in my car down the road from the station many times as I just can't afford diesel to get me to and from work after every shift. But last night I came home after work.
"On my way home from work I bought a bottle of vodka. When my wife and children were tucked up asleep, I took all the tablets from the medicine cabinet.
"I sat there and planned my next move. To take the tablets and the vodka and walk down to the riverside and just end it all for good. The broken clothes line outside that my wife has been asking me to fix would come in handy. I know it sounds cowardly but I just cannot take this pressure any more. It's become just unbearable."