THE victim of sex attacks by a former US marine still locks her bedroom door at night because she is always afraid of him coming back.
Eamonn McCall (40), who molested his niece when she was a young child, has been sentenced to 12 years at the Central Criminal Court.
McCall, who is originally from Carlow, started abusing the girl when she was seven and he was about 16.
His victim said she wanted the accused named so "the world can know he is a child abuser".
McCall, with an address on North Circular Road, in Dublin 7, pleaded guilty to sexually assaulting the girl and attempting to rape her in her family home in Carlow town on dates between April 1990, just before her First Holy Communion, and December 1994.
Mr Justice Paul Carney said the woman's victim impact report was "one of the most harrowing ever received by this court".
The victim said McCall had robbed her of her right to live in her home town because she could only bear to spend a few nights there, acknowledging that if it were not for her parents she would never go back.
She spoke of her rage and described it as "useless anger" over what McCall had done to her.
"I still feel so angry. I hate him. He is a cancer in the world. I wish he would do everyone a favour and go away and die. He has shown no remorse, no contrition."
She said sometimes an article in a newspaper or on television or something someone said during a conversation would remind her of the abuse she suffered as a young child.
"I feel like a small girl again and I am terrified and alone," she said before adding that she felt like there was a shadow in her mind.
She spoke of how she still had to lock her bedroom door at night because she was always afraid of McCall coming back -- "he is in my room and I can't escape" and added that the nightmares still continued.
The victim said the abuse had shattered the family, and described herself as "a good person who deserves a good life".
McCall, a reformed heroin addict, appeared in court yesterday with severe facial injuries.
His counsel said he had been badly beaten in prison after other inmates discovered the nature of his offences. Counsel asked the judge to take this into account when sentencing.
Mr Justice Carney said the aggravating factors in the case were the multiple instances of abuse, the age disparity involved and "in particular", the effect on the victim.
He imposed a 12-year term but suspended the final two years after taking into account McCall's early guilty plea and relative youth at the time of offending.
The victim revealed that her counselling with the Rape Crisis Centre had kept her alive.
She said she often thought if she had locked her bedroom door in December 1994, the night of the attempted rape, McCall would not have been able to get her for "that last time".
She said the pain never goes away and sometimes a smell would remind her of McCall and she would vomit.
She concluded her victim impact report by saying that she was waiving her right to anonymity because she wanted the world to know that McCall is a child abuser.
She also thanked the gardai and the DPP for their "professionalism" in dealing with the case.