'I knew it had to be this way for Hayley and Roy' - Corrie actress Julie Hesmondhalgh
IT'S Julie Hesmondhalgh's last day on Coronation Street and it's only lunchtime, but there have already been tears.
"Jennie [McAlpine, who plays Fiz] got me going with her card," says Hesmondhalgh, who's played Hayley Cropper for the last 16 years.
Her departing storyline's been one of the most talked about in soap history, not only because she and husband Roy (David Neilson) are such well-loved characters, but because of Hayley's controversial decision to end her own life after being diagnosed with terminal cancer.
Hesmondhalgh (43) knew the moment she told the show's producer Stuart Blackburn she wanted to leave, that it wasn't going to be in the back of a taxi.
"It wasn't necessarily what I wanted, but I knew it had to be that way for Hayley and Roy," explains the actress. "It wouldn't have made any sense to do anything else. Had I gone off to Africa [as the character did in 2007 when Hesmondhalgh had a break], I would've been ringing Roy all the time."
Blackburn, a former Corrie scriptwriter, was on his way home following his first day in charge, when he received the call.
"Stuart, bless him, doesn't mince his words at the best of times," says Hesmondhalgh, chuckling as she recalls their conversation.
"I said, 'Stuart, I can't couch this with any other term but I'm going to leave,' and he went, 'Oh, my God!"'
Roy and Hayley were introduced by Alma Baldwin back in 1998, when Hayley was a shy shop assistant at Firman's Freezers.
A friendship ensued and then, on one of their dates, Hayley revealed that she was a pre-operative transgender formerly called Harold (she later underwent sex change surgery).
"Right at the beginning, the trans community weren't happy with the storyline because, to be fair, it was a bit of a joke," says Hesmondhalgh, who's wearing a bright green Sixties-style dress, her peroxide crop messily styled.
"We had a producer, Brian Park, who was brilliant but it was like, 'Oh, we'll have Roy on a series of disastrous dates and then he'll fall for someone and find out she's transsexual'.
"But I never saw it as a joke. I read up on it, talked to people and tried to do it properly, and when David and I started working together, we both took it on. I think the trans community saw it and thought it was actually changing attitudes."
The pair had a blessing ceremony in 1999, which is where Hesmondhalgh met her husband-to-be Ian Kershaw, the writer and actor who played "a baddie journalist" in the episode.
Then in 2010, Roy and Hayley got married to reflect the change in law. "Roy gave a speech, which remains one of my favourite lines ever," says Hesmondhalgh.
"He said, 'We've remained the same, the world has turned to meet us'. And that's exactly what happened. They've just carried on their little path and the world has adjusted, and that's brilliant."
Looking back, she thinks it's ridiculous that the soap chose an actress to play the role. "Now you'd have a trans actor, but the pressure for someone would've been off the scale back then. There was enough pressure on me from the d***heads in the press."
The Lancashire-born star's initial interest had been social work. She decided later to focus on acting, studying at LAMDA before joining an independent theatre company. Roles in The Bill, Dalziel And Pascoe and The Dwelling Place followed, before Coronation Street came calling.
Just as Hayley's arrival proved thought-provoking, so does her departure -- in choosing to end her life before her cancer treatment renders her incapable of doing so.
"It's very much character-led because she wouldn't ever want Roy to assist her, and she doesn't want to get to a point where she isn't able to do anything and could confuse reality with the past," she explains.
A member of the British Humanist Association, Hesmondhalgh has "quite strong views" in favour of pro-choice. "Obviously within the constraints that have to be extremely carefully laid out to make sure it's not abused," she says.
"I wouldn't want to live in that kind of pain and anguish and see my family and friends go through it."
For that reason, she's always understood Hayley's decision, while Neilson hasn't.
"We as actors have very different views, so he's just played what he feels and I've just played what I feel."
She describes the two of them as "like an old married couple".
Viewers won't actually see Hayley die but they will witness her drinking the lethal concoction, which Roy tries to dissuade her from doing right up until the end.
The last scene was done in one take.
The atmosphere on set that day was unlike anything she'd witnessed before. "There's a lot of banter and a lot of fun, even when you're doing extremely dramatic scenes, but everything was silent. It was almost holy and church-like," she recalls.
While the last few months have been tough-going, Hesmondhalgh's keen not to complain.
"I always think you've got to be careful when you're talking about things like this, because I don't actually have it [terminal cancer]," says the actress, who mulled over her decision to leave for a long time before making the announcement.
Coronation Street continues on ITV on Mondays, Wednesdays and Fridays. Hayley's final episode airs on Monday, January 20