Florence Welch's depression battle
Published 24/03/2010 | 08:56
Florence Welch has told how she wrote her debut album Lungs while battling depression.
Florence - aka Florence And The Machine - had split from her long-term boyfriend at the time and struggled to complete the record.
The 22-year-old told Grazia: "I was in a seriously bad way - I'd broken up with Stuart, I felt out of control and I was very raw and not in a good frame of mind. I'd gone from being this art student messing about with music to this girl with a record deal, magazine front covers and all this hype."
She continued: "In many ways, it was everything I ever wanted, but when it happened all I felt was total, paralysing fear. I couldn't cope with the idea of making the album. I just wanted to sabotage the whole thing, not do it and just disappear.
"It seemed so wrong that when I was so unhappy in my personal life, my career was suddenly taking off. Something inside me wanted to ruin everything. I spent a lot of time just crying. I felt quite reckless with grief. I didn't care about anything.
"I got through that depression, that heartbreak and so many other things with the album, which is why it's so emotional."
And Florence confessed she still found it hard to adjust to her new life.
"I just feel a bit shell-shocked and tired. I've had times when I've just turned up in a hotel in Stockholm and gone into a meltdown. Crying and feeling lonely," she said.
"I guess there's a big part of me that never actually thought any of this would happen and it has, and it's happened so fast and it's wonderful, but the changes can be scary."