Corinne 'pinballed around' by grief
Published 05/01/2010 | 18:18
Corinne Bailey Rae says she is still going through the grieving process following the death of her husband - and at times has felt like she is "at the bottom of the ocean".
The chart star's partner Jason Rae died nearly two years ago after an accidental overdose of methadone and alcohol following a drinking session with a friend.
In an interview with the February edition of Mojo magazine she said she had been "pinballed around" by the different stages of her grief, adding: ""For the first few months I thought I was doing it wrong because it wasn't coming to me, then there would be times when I really, really would feel it - I used to feel like I was right at the bottom of the ocean, totally overwhelmed, you felt like you'd be able to drift back up to the surface and breathe again."
Corinne, 30, continued: "I definitely still feel like I'm in that process. The one useful thing I feel anybody's said to me is how long a process it is. There are lots of times, even now, when it feels like it hasn't really happened."
Jason Rae died in March 2008 at a Leeds flat. An inquest recorded a verdict of death by misadventure.
Corinne said she was not angry with him but said: "You know how angry with himself he would have been."
She has written about their relationship and her loss on her forthcoming second album The Sea. But the Put Your Records On singer said she struggled to write in the wake of her husband's death.
"I didn't write any songs for ages, nine or 10 months. I didn't hear anything."